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Two more papers, then I'm free and I'm going to make some changes. I promise that for myself.
Winter morning -leenik (dA)
the leaves on the trees have all wilted and fell,
the birds in the park have sung their last song,
tho it feels like autumn isn't over,
winter's here..
The cold icy winds they burn skin like acid,
The snowflakes keep on falling like heavy tears,
The lake is now dead, now hard,
and nothing can penetrate,
Winter is here.
I wish for the warmth of a sunny day,
Or the lush green grass to stare at all day,
Yet all that's staring at me is white blankness,
No colour, just vast emptiness.
Winter is here.
It'll pass, I know :)
posted @ 11:34 AM
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Regret.
Your heart is so black, it makes me sick.
posted @ 5:45 PM
Sunday, September 20, 2009
Mental Reminder.
Chicks before dicks man.
It should always be that way.
A boy shouldn't be the answer for everything, right?
posted @ 1:09 AM
Saturday, August 22, 2009
Lets paint the canvas bright blue.
I know who I am. I know what I like. I know that it may seem like I don't like I live this life thru others but thats how it is when you don't express your likings. It's what it is when you just keep em inside. And usually it won't bother me but I suppose I'm just scared of being another one of those people who think like others and like the same stuff other people do. I don't think I do. I used to think I was unique or at least slighty different. Is it that these people are slightly different with me?
Who am I? Only I shall know.
Ps: Skin on my face is effin peelin! T_T
posted @ 11:16 AM
Sunday, August 16, 2009
Scooby Snacks for Sandy :)
Hopefully a short update before I begin studying. Been seriously lackin. Anyway, tagged by Sam on what I fear and there's many that's similiar like.. well actually all she said XD Death, scary movies, wiggly shit.. Just refer to hers lol :F
Mm, I would say that I'm scared of.. failing? This is expecially so since my dad is such a successful person and this is all thru hardwork and what he has really is sweet success as in getting to where he is now without the help of anyone else but himself. I really look up to my dad because I think that it's so difficult to pull through especially when you're so poor and you can barely make ends meet. So yes, I don't want to be a failure in life and just well not live up to the standards that my dad has put up.
I fear ghosts :F Scary la deii. Esp when you hear those stories! ._.
I fear REJECTION. Lol.
I fear corpses? O_o
I fear losing all my pictures in my hard drive :O THAT is SCARYyYYYY~~~~
I fear being RAPED. LOL AND LIkE ANY OTHER SUICIDE-ISH moments @_@
And sometimes, I even fear my reflection. hahaha T_T
One thing I'm particularly afraid of is dying in a car accident *TOUCHES WOOODD* cause I feel like it's such a waste to die that way.
Err, I really can't think of anything else. Oh I just am afraid of dead things o.O
Omg I'm so lazy alreadddddy. :( I shall end here!
Oh btw, I miss you Sarah and sorry we don't chat much, I'm trying to cut dwn on chatting time and study more. I hope you understand and don't think otherwise :)
posted @ 8:12 PM
Western Digital has the best employees in 2004
I was feeling like an update was in order but now I'm feeling pretty lazy again!
Though from the moment I last blogged and now I have made a few conclusions:
1. I'm not as smart as I thought I was (Not that I think that highly of myself anyway so you can imagine how low I am =_=)
2. The people in my class are so loaded with drama and gossip that it's all quite toxic and they seem to be the people that are 'good' and study-to-the-max peeps. And me, whose neither smart or a study-loads person isn't involved in any of this o_o
3. I don't know if I've mentioned this but.. I don't have much faith in the youth? It's just my pessimistic thinking.
4. I have lost all social skills, really. I don't know how to talk to my classmates and moreover, what to talk abt.. All this small talk and trying to figure out what to say is draaaaaaaaaaining. Stil, I'm trying since most of them are just really nice people.
5. I'm a very bad driver. Well, that's what people would say.. but I'd just go with bad luck and bad cirsumstances really. I'm serious.
6. Thinks that it is quite right when someone says that the planet will be alright, but it's just the humans that are at threat. But anyways 99% of all species get extinct anyway. I hope that's the right figure :F
7. I was wacthing this program like big ideas to save the earth and I think that mandatory houses are damn cool. Their houses that are built in factories and apparently there's be less waste and you can use recycled items such as recycled plastics turned into tiles for your home! :)
8. Yasmin Ahmad is great. And my dad told us something abt her that made me shocked! But yeah, it don't really matter nehow. It's the insides that count :)
9. Oh, my sis has H1N1 and I din't quarantinned myself. This isnt really a conclusion but yeah xD
10. Johnny Depp is a superb actor with a very handsome face that any girl loves. T_T
11. Vanessa Hudgens is annoying me with her 'squeky (?) clean' image when twice she's been caught having nude pictures of herself. I really dislike that. Bitch (lol, okay the last word was improper but I couldn't help myself)
12. I somehow have this curse/ability of seeing how ppl feel and what their doing.. I don't really feel as if it's an ability but for some reason other ppl don't see the same things. Maybe I'm jsut over-analysing and just am paranoid. Though, sometimes it's obvious when ppl just crave for attention; For example: Just saying something that is totally out of your nature to say. In my opinion of course.
13. Emm.. Oh yes, music just ain't as good as what it used to be. I refuse to dwnload songs like 'Love Sex and Magic' or any of that rap stuff (Kanye West is an exemption) and put it into my iPod. Well, I just don't enjoy this kinda mainstream music cause most of the time it's abt f'king a shortay in his crib with his homies or doing tricks you've never seen.. bla bla bla Love and Sex and Magic. Right.. You want real music? Listen to michael buble, andrea brocelli, josh groban who sing with full feeling. :( 'Tis beautiful. Of course, I'd die listening to them everyday, but ppl may question my taste in music lol so I shan't say whom I prefer.
14. I don't know. I suppose I just feel like.. everyone just wants to go to clubs and drink and smoke and do drugs and be cool. Really, this is SUICIDE! I know people want to have fun and I don't mind drinking on some occasions and have some fun but it seems as if their lives are revolving around these things. Like even Whitney Houston can't sing anymore cause she did drugs and I know it's kinda unrelated but I jsut feel so sad abt this cause it's just a talent wasted and gone. And I know she's going to spend her whole life thinking abt how it was such a mistake cause talents like this you just can't simply train and expect to get it back you know? You don't see andrea brocelli smoking weed and bong though if he really did, I'd be so devastated T_T
15. I love my Tuesday Gang :)
posted @ 12:38 AM
Monday, July 13, 2009
LOL.
i saw u sittin alone one day,
you'de be my friend today i pray.
i plucked otu my courage and gave out a sigh
walk to u and said a hi
you looked at me with a confused face
as if you were a racist and i a different race,
but then u gave me one big smile,
by then i knew i passed the trial.
next day i saw u with ur friends,
i was feeling a bit tense,
but it was not i who said a hi,
it was u who did give a try.
i felt i had found a clone,
and that was the end of my heart being alone,
you gave me laughter,you kept me warm
my love for u started to swarm
whats this feeling inside my heart,
like the light that begins to shine in the dark,
the cherry on the cake,
i'm sure this feeling's fake.
guess i was wrong,
that feeling was still strong,
wat could it be
was i in love with thee?
how can this feeling be true?
how can i be in love with u?!
how can friendship turn to more,
how did u reach to my core
days go by and still i wonder,
why my love for u keeps gettin stronger
i didnt want it to turn out this way
dats why my love for u i cant say
i wish i could take this feeling back
i hope you'll cut my some slack
i decided to tell u how i feel,
this contract with my heart, ive already deal
=_____________= written in form 2.
After all that had happened to me in my younger high school years, I thank god that I am sane now. #_#
posted @ 4:56 PM
Hello :) I am unpredictable at times and maybe a bit enervating at times but what I enjoy is just a quiet day with friends and family or just reading a good book whilst sitting in a lazy chair :) The simple things in life is what I love. And I would love to live without complications if it is most possible.